lord grant me the strength to accept the plot lines i cannot change
courage to continue to watch the show
and wisdom to remember i am not a member of the psychotic part of the fandom
I got a job and now I work a lot. 35-40 hours a week. Opening or closing shift on any given day. My work is physically demanding. Thus, I come home very tired and don’t feel like doing much. That includes
wasting spending hours reading, reblogging, and posting on Tumblr. I will try to make a greater effort to do so (I’ve missed reading posts from some of you), but don’t expect too much.
That is all.
That this place works out. It would be nice to have a (more) permanent place to live, ya know? At least I have a job now, which means we’ll be able to afford this place without having to put ourselves on a strict budget/can budget and still have some cushion left over.
I hope this feeling lasts. I like not living off of ramen, and being able to buy things for my girlfriend (I got her a birthday gift last month)! It feels good. As much as I hate capitalism, it feels good to have some financial agency within it.
It also feels good knowing that my parents can finally make their house into a home (good looking and functional) after 11 years of living there.
I hope things continue to get better
(because I don’t know if I can handle more stress and disappointment).
The struggle continues….(but it doesn’t have to win).
Wish me luck! :-)
and feeling extra bad because I didn’t treat my girlfriend very well this morning…which also meant that I didn’t get to hangout or eat lunch with her like we planned (which in turn made it hard to eat at all).
It’s days like this when I wish I had friends in this city (or a job) to take my mind off of things…or at least be able to talk it all out with someone other than myself.